Letters To Jason: Our First Date
November 11, 2025.
Four years ago today was our first date. Denver beer company in Arvada. 7pm. I remember being so giddy about you from the beginning and eagerly awaiting 7pm to come around. I wasn’t sure if I should eat dinner, ha. I was nervous too, first date gitters, but I already felt like I was walking into something good. You were there early, I remember you texted me that you got a table and that you forgot it was Veterans Day so it was busy! I forgot too. I liked that you were there before me. I got there and we went up to the bar for a beer. You were in your old skinny jeans and brooks sneakers. I think a black sleeve shirt. I think you had your winter park vest on too. I remember I spent a lot of time picking out an outfit that evening. In the end, I don’t think any of that mattered. I was wearing dangly earrings. I remember this because you said I played with my earrings while I was talking most of the night, and it was the tell tale sign that I was into you! You’d always make a joke about that when people asked about how we met / our first date. But it’s true, I was into you, like really into you. We had incredible conversation and we really did hit it off from the beginning. Everything felt easy with you. We talked about Mitch, your first marriage a little bit, the car accident I was on, deep stuff for a first date. The conversation was open and honest. We of course talked about skiing and soccer. I’ll never forget when I told you I was an architect you said that’s sexy! No one had ever said that before, you loved it and it made me feel really good. We talked about everything and anything. And we were there for probably three hours and three beers later. At the end of the night you walked me to my car, we hugged. And then we kissed. And sparks really did fly. No joke. The kiss was incredible and passionate, not just a little peck on the lips. This maybe even had a hint of tongue. Or a lot! Ha. The funny thing about this kiss is we for the rest of our relationship will make jokes about who instigated it, always saying no you did! You of course would tell everyone I went in hard for the kiss and went in big and wet lol. Though I’m still convinced you’re the one who initiated the kiss. But maybe that’s ok that we think each other initiated, maybe we both did in a way, because we both knew that this was a damn good thing we’d both found. All I know is a got in the car and I texted Megan Lefever and said the date was incredible. There’s something special here. I got home that evening and walked in the door swooning, opened my phone to a text from you “that kiss 😍” I think we texted a bit more that evening before bed, even though it was way past my bedtime. And I heard from you every single day from that moment on until losing you. There was no doubt that you were special. And no doubt that meeting you changed my life. The rest is history and a very good love story. An incredible love story. I still do believe the love we shared was not a normal love, it was a deep passionate pure love. One that not everyone gets lucky enough to find and experience in this lifetime. I am so damn lucky to have found you and a love like ours. It filled my heart with deep joy and brought me everything I had ever wanted in a person, life and future. The dreams I had with you were unmatched. You were one of the god damn best, Jason. And I’m so damn unlucky to lose you, far too fucking soon. And no amount of luck for having a love like ours will ever out weigh the negative of losing you too soon. You changed my entire life Jason Scheuer. Thank you for the big wet kiss on November 11, 2021. You changed my life for the better. I love you. I miss you.
