Letters to Jason: New Year’s Eve

December 31,2025.

New Year’s Eve and you’re not here.

I miss you my perfect husband and I wish you were near

It feels like nothing can ease the pain of your absence

A visit to the job site for the afternoon is only a small distraction

I get into my car and within minutes the tears are rolling down my cheeks

I think of you and all the beautiful New Year’s Eve memories we share

You deserved more time here.

We deserved the life and the dreams we had planned

I’d give anything to hold your hand

Tonight I will settle in and for the first time alone, ring in a new year without the man who was my home

While the rest of the world posts and shares glory, saying best year yet, the future is so bright

I’ll be sitting next to Nora holding her tight

I will look for you in the stars tonight

As I turn the first chapter of this new story alone

I know you said you’ll be by my side in spirit always to cheer me on

Oh what I would give to have you in human form for the rest of my life

Hold me tight dear husband

Watch down on me from above

Know that there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to be in your arms tonight

I love you Jason, hold me close as I learn to live without you

I say goodbye to the last year that you were here

Know that you will never leave me, you are my story

I am learning to carry you through our love and love only

But I wish I didn’t have to as I enter this new year alone